Be Brave! Face Life!!

[rynling]

I've been having a lot of panic attacks lately. Creating work I enjoy is a lot of fun, but my experience of fandom is awful. So I am going to set some guidelines!

This is what I will not do:

- Feel like I'm not producing anything because my fic posts don't get notes.
- Feel like I'm not producing anything because my art posts don't get notes.
- Stress out about how I feel like I've been shut out of my fandom.
- Worry that I'm lazy for not doing Inktober this year.

This is what I will do:

- Keep posting a new chapter every one or two weeks! That's a lot of writing!
- Respond to the lovely comments people leave on my fic!
- Try to leave at least one kudo on other people's fic every day!
- Keep drawing! Try new things! Be ambitious!
- Keep up the good work! Posting a new piece every week is a great pace!

My fandom community is garbage, so I need to believe in my own damn self... And also maybe find a doctor who I can convince to give me some pills, because oh my goodness these panic attacks are not fun.

Comments

[raisedbymoogles]

*shakes the Pompoms of Emotional Support in your direction*

[rynling]

Thank you!

[thegingeryone]

you can do it! fandom may be garbage but you are not! (also good luck with the doctor and getting pills!)

[rynling]

Thank you so much! I've actually been having a tough time getting an appointment with a psychiatrist. I've decided that I don't care about what my insurance covers, and that the most important thing is proximity. Still, there's nothing available for miles. I think this may say something about the current state of America that, within the greater metro Washington DC area, literally every single psychiatrist is booked solid.

The fandom is garbage though. I know this, yet I don't stop engaging. This is a dramatic enactment of me @ me years from now when I no longer care about Zelda:

[lassarina]

Godspeed on the med quest, my friend. it changed my life once I knew there was a way to help with the shit my brain does to me for its own funsies.

This is a good set of goals and I hope you do well with it! I could do with some progress in those arenas, as well.