"Cursed blood" is a really good theme though, I'm just saying

Maybe this is because I'm sick with a bad cold and can't go outside, but I started getting really down on myself last night. Other people are out in the world getting published and winning awards, but I'm just sitting at home and playing video games and writing fanfiction. There's nothing inherently wrong about writing fanfiction, of course, but like. No August Derleth is going to magically see my hidden talent and magically swoop down like a fairy godmother and magically create a literary legacy for me. I had actually once hoped that I could be like August Derleth and uplift my own friends, but unfortunately I am nothing and no one.

(By the way, if you've never done an image search for August Derleth, you totally should. That boy was built like a brick house. He could uplift my literary legacy any day if you get what I'm saying.)

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That's not great. But I guess, if nothing else, it does motivate me to use my own full legal name to publish stories about monsterfucking. Not that many people have my family name, and it would be gratifying to make it forever associated with something I believe in, which is that your blood isn't your destiny.

Re: "Cursed blood" is a really good theme though, I'm just saying

But I should say that I'm not taking "boring" for granted!

While I was indulging myself in a spiral of genetic self-loathing last night, I asked my husband how his family is doing. He told me that, earlier this past weekend, his sister took her kids camping in the desert. Unfortunately, a local terrorist organization decided that it was a good night for munitions testing. They dropped several missiles on the campsite, so my husband's sister had to pack up the kids and drive home in the middle of the night with her headlights off.

I was like, "Were you not going to tell me that if I didn't ask," and my husband was like, "It's not worth getting upset every time someone shoots a few missiles."

Cool, cool. Looking forward to visiting in a few weeks I guess.